Thanks for answering all those questions, hope it wasn't too overwhelming, although some were just reflective thinking out loud...

You said that generally young homosexuals and heterosexuals are attracted to their peers as well as adults...although I beg to differ as I too idolised several adults when I was a child, and some were like mentors that I knew and looked up to and wanted to be like them when I grew up, and few others I even had felt some sexual feelings towards, I even felt aroused looking at gay porn when I was young. But it was a confusing time in my life and my feelings were mixed, whatever the case you dont see a young heterosexual or homosexual child hanging up a poster of a 90 year old elderly man, so there is something still very influential in the brain that is the cause of that...

You also misunderstood me when you said "So announcing you are gay at 12 would have been fine but at 18 if you did the same thing people would not like it? sounds weird to me...."

What I meant was anouncing my feelings at age 12 about my attraction to younger guys would be more accaptable then announcing the very same thing at an older age...so whats weird is how overrated a persons age is and how it can label you as an outcast even though having the same feelings when we were younger is totally fine with everyone but just not later.

The information I cited here came from these sources some medical journals and results of MRI scans, this only a few of many that you can easily find online...

http://news.softpedia.com/news/Which-Is-the-Cause-of-the-Pedophilia-46799.shtml

http://news.softpedia.com/news/Scientists-Decode-the-Brain-of-the-Pedophiles-66441.shtml

http://cat.inist.fr/?aModele=afficheN&cpsidt=18843559

http://world.plime.com/plime-com/l/36632/1/

http://dad4justice.blogspot.com/2007/12/study-links-brain-defects-to-pedophilia.html

http://mentalhealthedce.com/courses/contentIP/secIP13.html

You suggested that I should focus on what I will be and do and act like rather than who I am but to be honest I have already fully exhausted those other options countless times through out the years and come to a definite conclusion on what I will do.. which is live my life being true to myself, my morals and my beliefs without ever giving into my selfish desires, which I feel are in appropriate for many reasons and I have chosen to refrain from ever being with boys which also answers your question on if I ever had a YF, and I never intend to ever have a YF for personal resons which may turn into a massive debate if I go into that, however what you guys do is your own business and I hope you can respect my choice to live a celibate life, boy-free life.

I found out about CBLF when I was very suicidal and depressed one day and started searching for some sort of support, but I ended up finding "boy chat" instead and felt even more depressed and horrified at the way they talked about young people and their narcissistic, delusional, selfish, I'l do whatever the **** I want type abusive mentality and of course after arguing with them one of them suggested here for support instead.

As for my Aoa I'd say its more towards adolescent teens, I have even felt an attraction on very rare ocassions towards a select few who are over 18 if they have that flawless fresh youthful cute face with big blue eyes,(I'm a sucker for eyes lol especially blue ones.) However in my lifetime I've only ever come across a few adults like that in the outside world or in a picture that actually make my heart jump, so my chances of ever hooking up with one is non-existent, ahh well thats life for ya, just got to continue biting the bullet and endure this crap until my times up.