Im so confused and I have been that way for a long time. I dont know what my rights are, Its because I am afraid of the ignorant people in this world, which is the majority, the ones who are considered normal and act as they please without being judged, me on the others hand...Im so tied down, supressed and afraid to be myself.

I feel so vulnarable and unsafe because the ignorant ones have all the power and they dont care that I am an honest caring person with morals and sympathy that would never hurt anyone. I could be a million times more gentle than those people who are ready to burn me on the stake but in the end the only thing that defines me to the rest of society is my sexual orientation, the rest means NOTHING to them !

Because I know how we are perceived and for this I curse those before me who have given me this stereotype and imbeded fear into society through their abuse and selfishness towards youth, I hate them so much, more so than the rest of society.

I dont want my family, friends, neighbours or even my neighbourhood and the town I live in to ever find out about me being a BL and I dont want to do anything that can cause me and my family grief so I am frozen like a deer in the headlights , afraid to move, to live, incase I am discovered or even worse condemned for simply being outed for my sexual orientation.....

I am afraid to even be on this board right now, I honestly dont know what I am allowed to do and what not....I have never been intimate with anyone and have no intentions of ever befriend or be with any younger person however this changes nothing as I dont know if coming to a website like this could cause me problems by the authorities or my Ineternet Service Provider...

I dont know if looking at a boy walking past me in the street or a public place can cause me problems, sometimes I even turn myhead the other way instead of taking a glance because I dont want to be discovered. I am even worried to look at anyone at my local Shopping Mall due to the cameras in there incase a simple glance towards a passing fella is noticed. If I come across a webiste with a clean portrait of a boy I delete my hardrive cause Im so afraid. My sexual orientation has made me so PARANOID because the ignorant ******'s have too much power in this world and the ability to make my life even worse than it already is.

So I need you guys to help a confused struggling fellow BL to fill me in on my rights. So far I have worked out that I have a right to exist in this world but thats as far as I got.

Thanks