ok... I want to get off sexually. I even believe I NEED to do it (that I'm designed for fairly regular sexual release).

When I do that... I'm going to be focused on boys (because that's how I'm orientated).

so:

Should I
a)... totally deny myself any and all getting off and try and suppress every sexual urge? Some suggest this can be achieved by prayer.
b)... try and masturbate without fantasy (which I honestly don't think I can do).
c)... accept my urges and follow them where ever they lead... go find some cute boy and sex him up
d)... get caught up in porn
e)... take responsibility for my own sexual needs through masturbation and fantasy with a view to not ACTING OUT in (c) or (d).

I think it's obvious I'm leaning on (e). If my motive is to channel my sexual release in a way that does not involve actually DOING something I believe to be sexually immoral with another person... is that sinful?... even if involves imagining doing it?


Blessings
Cat.