If I am not being asked to carry this burden than why am I and have in the past asked that God take this away from me and yet it still remains, stronger than ever?

I take things seriously? Yeah I do especially when my life is not the way it should be and if I can only show apart of me that's acceptable to other people unless I become a target without the option or respect by most to share my story (Which I will begin to do online first).

I have asked now as well as in the past so do you know why I still have this thorn in my side? I didn't think so.