You won't like it, but the reason you have the thorn in your side is that God allows some freedom to all of creation. You are the product of biological evolution, and biology is not a cookie cutter. Everyone is different, and every sexual orientation is a little different. The tough answer is that you got yours more or less at random, not because God doesn't love you, but rather because God loves you as you are. That seems to mean that God doesn't find convenient social conformity to be His greatest gift to you. Well, indeed, his only begotten son was a such a non-conformist that the mob and the governments of two nations, Judaea and Rome, all got together to torture him to death. So Jesus is there with you, he's your boy; figure out what his Love living in you would have you do next.