Christian BoyLove Forum #66854
I'm pretty new here so if I violated a rule or two, I'm sorry. The 'Rules' link appears to be broken.
Anyway, I'd just like to share my story as a victim of sexual abuse and the struggles it resulted to.
I think I was 6 years old at the time. I was attending Sunday school. One time, I was left under the care of the assistant while my parents were away for the hour. He (assistant) took me to a restroom, locked the door, and took advantage of my innocence as a child to show me his penis and convince me to show him mine. To keep it short, let's just say we "did things" with each other. Because he was a close friend of my parents, I was left under his care on multiple occasions. Because I was left under his care many times during that period, I ended up thinking this was normal.
Fast forward to my job as a volunteer at a VBS, I realized the abuse led me to get turned on by little boys. I thought nothing of it until one time I saw a little boy, using the urinal at a restroom next to me. I got curious, took a discreet peek at his thing, and realized I really am sexually attracted to boys.
Fast forward to the present day, I find that my attraction to boys has gotten somewhat out of control. I won't go into detail with the things I had done because it may seem like an erotica, which is a violation of a rule in another boy love forum.
I'm glad I found this place. I'm relieved to have finally found a place where I can comfortably talk about my attraction to little boys. I haven't told anyone about this in many years. You guys are the first to know.
I'm glad I'm not alone. I feel relieved having shared my story. Any advice will be appreciated.