..I sure went through a lot of hell to get where I am. I never would have met my Pastor friend had I not gone to jail and went through a lot of garbage because of that. But I believe that God does everything for a purpose, so even through all the stuff I had to put up with, I know that it was for a good thing and for His plan. That's what keeps me going today. Like I said, I can get paranoid very easy because you just never know how some people will feel or react to this kind of thing. Although most of the news about my being a BL is way in the past, it is still on public record and anyone can find out if they really want to. However, I have worked hard at showing people who I REALLY am, the real person inside, so that they will know they have nothing to fear from me. Besides that, I purposely do not involve myself with kids very often at all...only when it is absolutely nessisary (which is something I hope to remedy someday). So yeah, I guess I'm lucky but it has come with a cost.