it was, I suppose, a form of brainwashing. I am still trying to think of the name of the man whose 'model of criminality' they used. I criticised it a lot and they allowed that so that I thought I was maintaining an independence, but it was working at a deeper more sinister level which I could not get at at the time.
I suppose it made me see myself as a potential molester instead of the teacher and children's friend that I had always felt myself to be. It put the idea in me that children were actually my enemy - rather in the way that medieval monastics were taught to view women. Although I'm not sure there's any way back from all of that it would be something worth discussing . . . .