You could have just described me. No kidding. You are right about kids being able to smell fear too, it's really weird. Although I KNOW I would never, COULD never, do anything to harm a child in any way, I still feel so self conscious when I'm around them. Like deep down in my mind I am convinced that they all just know what I am and are all going to be terribly afraid of me. I know, it's just strange paranoia, but it is always in my head. All because of that Sex Offender Treatment Program, really. It's been years since I was in that thing but I am still bothered by it. I am still paranoid of Big Brother. Its amazing what the government can do when they apply just a few scare tactics.