2 days ago, family tensions in my life reached an all time high.
What it was all over, was just silly, and I was not the cause of it.
Basically, my brother is to go over seas for the Army soon, and he asked me to play a game with him, that he knows I Hate SO much. So basically, he asked me knowing I'd say no, and then be in a bad mood all day.

Anyway. Before in my life, I've talked to my mother about what's gone on with me. And a year ago or so, my brother 'pretended' to care, and asked me what was going on. And I told him.

Then two days ago, in front of my entire family, I decided to go to a movie. And my brother said "Good, make sure you take some little boys you can fuck with you".

My mom didn't even pay attention.

I turned to my brother, and I said, "I hope you get suicide bombed".

My mom jumped and looked at me, with the whole 'protect the older sibling' face.

This favoritism in this family has been there since he joined the army.

I almost threw up after that.
Favoritism makes me sick.

THAT, and I shared, my DEEPEST, DARKEST, secret with someone close to me, that I thought cared, and he used it against me.

That is what I call a relationship ending statement.

I really don't care if he dies, he has pushed me to such an extreme limit.

I left home for a couple of days and was sheltered by my best friend.

I am home now, hoping tensions won't rise again.