When someone treats you like crap for so long, all personal ties are broken.
And you just don't care.

Okay well in a nutshell.

I was molested when I was eleven years old.
I wrote down the feelings I was having for other boys.
My brother found it and thought it was recent.

I don't want to BS anyone.
I am gay.
I am attracted to males. Male attractions don't limit age.
But I don't pay special attention to 'boys'.
My 'boy' is like, twelve, thirteen, or fourteen.
And I mean, who doesn't know that they're beautiful?
So I'm not a 'boylover' but I mean, well, some are smoking.
But I want a mature relationship with someone my age.
So I don't know really what to say.

Basically, if a smokin' hot twelve year old boy came on to me, I'd point to the other boys his age and say "Oh, that wouldn't be fair to them."