I appreciate your advice, Dakota and blazeofhope.
In the ten minutes after reading your post I already got rid of the DVD, it is broken into very small pieces now. This was the last physical thing I owned.

I am bl, as my friend is... And he *actually* stumbled upon it... Without any doubt, I know him by heart for thirty years. He was really mad because he had to throw away his 150 USD hdd, as well.

We are both celibate. and we always will stay.

It was almost hurting the both of us physically to see what can happen to a boy. The main reason was the physical resemblance to my son. I am not that sure that I wouldn't kill someone who would have done something like that to him. Figuratively spoken.

So, thats it.

I will pray.

Warmly,
Sushil