There has been something going on at my church lately (at least I THINK something is going on...) and I'm getting a little wierded out by it. I might just be paranoid or maybe thinking a little too much, I don't know. But I thought I would bring it in here and see what you people think.

There is this boy at my church who is to me about an 11 on a scale of 1 through 10. He is absolutely beautiful big time. So much so that every time I see him at church I just can't help myself, I just have to look at him a little bit. I never stare at him or anything (at least I try not to...sometimes I have to catch myself), nor do I drool when I look at him, so I'm not THAT conspicuous...at least I hope I'm not. But a couple of sundays ago I our Pastor asked for prayer requests and someone gave one, so I naturally turned towards where the voice was coming from and low and behold, there he was, right in my line of sight. Him and his Mom. I couldn't help myself, I let my eyes fall on him for just a brief second or two and then his Mom gave me the nastiest look! If looks could kill, I would have two great big holes burned in my skull right now.

Now, after that, I keep thinking that maybe some of the people are talking about me or something. One thing, that boy's mom also works for law inforcement here in town and she does know that I am on the sex offender registry. I know for a fact that she knows. The boy's family is pretty well connected in my church, so now I'm trully paranoid that everyone that they know is looking at me in a bad way. Well, I'm not all THAT paranoid, but it just seems like every time I see that boy now, he is running off to find one of his parents or one of thier friends, like he dosen't like me looking at him for a second or so. I don't know, I'm probably just freaking out or something, but it sure seems kind of real to me.

That's my paranoia story for now. Any comments would be appreciated.

Chris