Well it has come down to this...

My wife does not want a platonic only relationship with me.

In all honesty, at this point in time, that's all I can offer.

So we have agreed to separate after Christmas.

She is convinced that I could change if only I saw my sexuality as sin and wanted to change. She believes I have a choice to not be what I am. I don't agree with her.

The tragedy of her believing that is she feels I'm choosing to like boys over loving her.

In all honesty I think she's making a wise choice to not stay with me. I really can't be the husband she wants and I really can't stop liking boys the way she wants me to.

I just pray that we can have some kind of friendship left at the end of the day.

Thanks for your ongoing prayers guys
Cat.