Hi Youth,

Ok, today I'm going to sound like the devil's advocate and maybe people aren't going to like what I write to you, but oh well. They will get over it, besides I really want to say this.

You say that God keeps putting men in your life that you fall in love with. Well, if you really believe that God has put them there, then why not try love? Why don't you try a little experiment and go ahead and try out a relationship with one of them? Yes, I know, this isn't what most Christians would recomend...well, I'm not most Christians. Hey, there are far worse things in life you could do, you know. Like you mentioned cutting yourself (although I don't think you are actually thinking about going through with it), that would be far worse than trying out a relationship or a friendship with a man; even if the relationship turned into something sexual. I don't know, you are a really good kid and I hate to see you spend your teenage years the same way I did...just hating life and hating myself. I'm not sure if you hate yourself but I can tell that you are getting the whole "hating life" thing down pretty good.

Anyway, I just thought I would be the one to suggest the "bad" thing. Personally I don't see it as bad as most people think they do. And I think God definately has a place for Gays who are active sexually if they love Him with all thier hearts. And I don't believe that is an oxymoron, either.

With Love in Christ,
Chris