My age of attraction had been 13-18 boys for many years even over the 20 years of marriage, however I was faithful, apart from one sexual encounter with an old lover. About a year ago I was attracted to a 22 year old guy and I was very surprised. Now I am meeting so many young men that I find attractive and I am confused about this change. In conclusion I never began puberty with this kind of attraction in mind and I do not want life to be this way. As a Christian I desire to live in the Spirit and not follow the flesh but I feel so weak and I am afraid of falling again. My prayers are just 'Help me Jesus'.