So I have this problem of social awkwardness...basically I don't really feel the need to socially interact with people. I often feel like I don't share any interests with them so my mentality becomes why bother talking to these people cause it'll be pointless anyway. I also find that if I try to talk to someone I usually don't care for anything being talked about. Like I think people talk about the most useless things that really I couldn't care less about. So why change now?

I don't know how my syf's mum feels about me. As I've mentioned earlier (I think?) we've had maybe one decent conversation not about how her son has pissed himself or beat some kid up. I just don't know what to talk about. I also feel awkward because I do love her little boy and the guilt over it gets magnified in front of her. The reason I feel guilty is that that love is coming from a pedophile, not from a family member, or anybody who's supposed to love him.

So my questions are: How do I improve me interactions with her...as in what the heck do I talk about or do? And how should I bring up the conversation about wanting to correspond with her kid via mail once he's gone?

Thanks in advance.