I don't know who edited my post (i don't have a problem with it or anything) but can you please tell me what i wrote lol? Something must have slipped my mind.

But I talked to him today. We continued wrestling around, [edit] But then later his brother had to leave for a while and we were alone, and he came over to the bed and asked what i was reading. I made him lay down. From my understanding, he may want to have a sexual relationship, abut apparently has more self control, and won't let himself. We talked for a while. He loves my back rubs, so i gave him one, and he gave me one, we went to go back into the game room, and i pulled him aside, almost in tears. I told him, i was so sorry for making him feel unconfortable and that if i do it again, cal me on it, and that i wanted nothing to ruin our relationship. He was very forgiving, i was holding one side of his face, and as he is smaller than me, he jumped up and hugged me, and hunfg from my neck. He said, with all seriousness "Friends forever".

I had made the right choice. And i won't tell you the exact words, but he knows im sexually attracted to him, [edit] and he forgave me, and i feel so releaved. But if someone could help me on a question: is getting sexually aroused a sin? I don't think so, but im not quite sure.

And another question; why am i so wierd? [edit] and he has drank before, a sip of a Hinkeken beer (i don't know how to spell it) and i mean, only a sip. He had it when he was 12. Its 2 years later, and it bothers me, why?

Thanks All for listening, keep me in your prayers.