Christian BoyLove Forum #65294
Hi Joe... welcome to cblf... even though this is a BL board you are very welcome here.
There is help to be had but it may not look like exactly what you're hoping for right at this moment.
For starters, if you are looking for a cure to pedophilia you aren't really going to find one. But don't give up hope there. You can live a perfectly happy and Godly life as a pedophile and never do harm to any child.
The first thing to understand is that there is a huge difference between having feelings and fantasies and acting on them. There are very many pedophiles who experience sexual and romantic attraction to children who never act out on those feelings in any kind of sexual or inappropriate fashion. Many of us enjoy platonic (non-sexual) friendships with kids and find them very satisfying.
There is nothing unChristian about having these feelings. We are not defined by what we desire... we are defined by what we do.
I encourage you not to run away from how you feel. Accept yourself, accept how you feel and then work out the best way for you to manage your life and deal with it.
If you are feeling tempted to act out with a kid in an inappropriate manner you may need to get some help but don't rush into telling non-pedos about your sexuality because there is loads of hysteria out there and people can assume the worst about us. If you can find help in one of our forums that's a good place to start.
Second thing. You CAN do something about the struggle with porn. You don't have to stay in bondage to that. There is an excellent book called Addiction and Grace by Gerald May, I found that super helpful myself.
There are also some briefer discussions on this subject at our sister site CJAT.org
There are loads of discussions on this site too but they are harder to locate... but here is one:
Remember that one of the fruits of the Holy Spirit is self-control.
Lastly, are you only attracted to little girls or do you have attraction to same age girls as well? If you have the latter, then I encourage you to focus your sexual energies (fantasies and such) on them as much as you are able and cultivate that part of yourself... if for no other reason than to make your life a bit easier. However, if not, then welcome to the community of child lovers where many of us have the exact same struggle.
God bless you brother