Christian BoyLove Forum #64638
I don't think you are a bad friend at all for withdrawing.
We all have to survive emotionally.
There is always an emotional cost of being in love with a boy.
Some of us can manage to pay that cost and still be with our yfs... for others it's overwhelming and unmanageable.
For me I set my self a goal to have no agendas with my YF... to just let the friendship be what it is and to accept that.
Of course I wish we were closer... even quite apart from anything sexual... I just wish he loved me as intensely as I love him. But he won't... ever... and I am willing to suffer that to enjoy what we do have.
The way I figure it... it's going to hurt me either way... I'd rather be in pain and WITH him as a friend than be in pain WITHOUT him.
Godbless you as you decide what to do.