if i knew there were older men who wanted to get it on with me i'd be disgusted and question why they ever spent any time with me. i remember telling a 'friend' i was slightly attracted to him when i was younger and that scared him off for good. we were about the same age so it was a slightly different dynamic of course but still...i think it's wishful thinking on your part and a self defense mechanism in the form of denial to say that they would still talk to me if they found me out.