Youth, I hear you hun, you know I do.
Most of us have been where you are; some of us still are.
We love you, hun, and God loves you infinitely more.

I don't believe that God says we can't have the sexual/romantic relationships God has made us desire so strongly. I don't believe that the State nor the church needs to recognize a marriage for it to be a marriage. I don't believe that God would be so cruel as that, to fill us with such a strong impulse that cannot be changed or suppressed (healthily) and then demand that we do so, and I would refuse to follow a god who was so petty. I would gladly spend eternity in hell than serve such a duplicitous deity.

I do believe that God loves us with all of God's being. I do believe that God gave us these desires not to be suppressed, but to serve as an example in this world of the Love that awaits us in the next. I do believe that God has a purpose for homosexuality in this world, whether that is population control, social inter-connectivity, or even just as a giant challenge to the world: a way to grow in understanding of what it means to truly love(agape) another person, another people. I do believe that God sees our love as it truly is: something that transcends mere procreation, transcends simple biological plumbing.

I even believe this about us as boylovers, that we have a role in this world as well, though of course in this day and age that almost exclusively *is* to be without sexual contact.
I do have to admit that as I've become more and more comfortable with being homosexual, I have felt less and less fixated on boys - and I think that's a genuine correlation. Not that I don't still find boys attractive and sexy and sexual and exciting, I do, but by being unafraid of my gay-ness, I've been freed to be attracted to men my own age as well, which in turn has left me freer to put aside the attractions to boys. I think this is akin to being able to control a "roving eye" when you're dating someone. Having a relationship gives focus to both parties, being free to love gives focus to the love.

We've discussed the theology and the psychology ad nauseum, but I am more than happy to do it again, and again, and more if necessary.

I suggest to you, and to everyone, to watch "for the Bible tells me so" and to read "Jesus, the Bible, and Homosexuality: Explode the Myths, Heal the Church" by Dr. Jack Rogers (new revised edition coming in April!) which also has a free companion Study Guide, and to read Justin Canon's Bible Study.

I think that these together might help you to search and find those answers you're seeking. They helped me find them.


God Bless you Youth!
Love in Christ,
~CSL