Paul asked and did not recieve.

Jesus promises anyone CAN be healed. He doesn't promise everyone WILL be healed.

I did seek. And I did ask. And he answered. He just didn't answer in the way you think he should. Or in the way I thought he would have then. I now believe he wants me to live with it, and move on. I don't dwell on it all the time. I don't let it control me. God is first, always. I don't put boys on a pedestal. I cannot help but stare at a beautiful boy, but no evil thought may enter my mind, because I am a new person in Christ. I am a conqueror through him. So when an evil thought does arise I shut it down, for I have authority over all evil things. But I too am human, and I fail. But the word tells me He forgives, always. I ask for his forgiveness, and thank him for it.

What more can I do?

Do you think I am doing something wrong in my christian walk if I have not changed? Seriously, I'm curious. And be honest.