For those who don't know, which is just about all of you seeing as nobody here actually knows me, I am putting fear under my feet. For almost eight months fear has gripped me and at one point affected my life until I was incapacitated. The fear of hell, to be precise.

It's taken long enough to dicipline myself, but all of a sudden I can put this out of my mind. You know what I did the other night? I took all of my fears and worries, things I had already resolved which were still nagging at me, and crushed them up into a ball in my mind's eye and it all just disappeared. Poof! Like that! It's the kind of technique I'd hear about in school counselling and be like, "Oh come on, that's bull man!" but for me it actually worked!

It's when you rise to the surface and I look down into the world of those still plagued by fear. It's a repressing curse. What I have learned is that fear is actually a TEMPTATION, but it disguises itself by making you think that you need it. I feel so blessed to be above it finally.

I'm setting myself a nine day plan before I go down south to my nan's. To get rid of this fear once and for all and finally show it my fire! To finally be able to control my mind in this fashion makes me feel renewed. It's a rush of pure power. I can stop myself from getting scared simply by fighting the blasted thing, and scorning it. And then it goes away, and I'm replaced by this dazzling sensation of peace. I've felt very peaceful all day today. I've even kidded myself into thinking it could finally be the Holy Spirit, but it's definitely something to do with overcoming fear. It's a joy that in it's entirity is hard to fathom.

I had to post this because of my sheer relief. If anyone out there is scared of anything just bring forth your rage and overcome it, because fear is a bastard!