For a start I don't think Jesus get's tired of you at all, one little bit, ever!

He came as a man that he might have compassion on our weaknesses and He's always there with MERCY and GRACE to help in times of need (Heb 4:14-16).

Where sin abounds grace abounds much more (Rom 5:20).

bigcalv, you ARE free.

Free from Condemnation, free from the law of sin and death, free to call God your Father and go into Him in the holy of hollies.

As to a better way... I think there is one.

I again recommend "Addiction and grace" by Gerald May... that will definitely help with the porn issue.

secondly... go back to Scripture and just see if you really can find anything in there condemning masturbation? I still contend that all biblical sexual immorality has to involve two people (or creatures in the case of bestiality).

Blessings
Cat.