Growing from childhood to adolescency what did I know of such things as now I see in things as sexual feelings. behavior or conduct. And now as an adult, I find my self some what at a lost and confused about it.

I feel when we use words to express strong fellings like "Love" and then give a name to what we have this love for, as in a person, place or thing: Then come to see how or why we have come to have these feelings and ways of dealing with it; leads to something more than words can say; like what I find said by:

I. Charles Colton "Friendship set on fire.
2. Jeremy Taylor "The heart"s immortal thirst to be known and forgiven.
3. Henry Van Dyke "Spiritual fire."
4. Francis Bacan "When anothr person's needs are as important as your own.

I do not say they were talking of Boy Love, but I find it expresses what
I feel, when I feel this attraction to male & female youthful beauity.

To have sexual feelings seems to me like I am loving sex or having it added to the boy's maleness as I see him in this light. Then I am moved
to a new attraction to his beauity that some may see as lust.

Thus, I make a scientific study of the development of the meanings of these words "Boy Love." "adore" 'fond of' cherish, worship, idolize,
treasure, crazy about, boys and or young men with classifications such as

"pedophile" molester, predator, and "victims" because of them wanting to "make out" hug, kiss, cuddle, embrace. Engage in foreplay'have the hots for', make love, and having a romance relationship with them. And this, Leading to hate, dislike, loathe and detest, as seen by others.

I do hope and wish that this is not what "Boy Love" is all about, as I do
undserstand the need to establish and distinquish both right and wrong as we address the true meaning of Christian Boy Love.

Words to express my thoughts and feelings is out of a desire to share with all of you my views as I see them is the reason for this post. For I feel I have come a long way, with even more to go before I can both give and get the help I need to overcome this fear of what it means to come out as a chistian Boy Lover.

I am finding much help in here that has open my eyes to this dilemma with it's dimensions as did Adam and Eve when they did what they did to set us on this course of Knowledge of wrong and bad, and right and good.

And I want to thank you who are reading about what I have been moved to say.

Can it be true that; "As a man thinks, so is he?"

Justine75