I think Cat put it well, I also could be a boyluster if I do not fight it but even when I do lust still happens. Lust is a fight a battle against your flesh so fight and when you lose a battle don't be to hard or easy on yourself as Cat said. I love boys so much and I will never be ashamed of that, I will always do what is best for them and put their needs ahead of my own. I really hope you find a way to work through this and find a way that works for you.

God Bless

Blaze