I do not think that the feelings emotions and the thoughts of most boylovers ever change for boys. But you can mature in your understanding of who you are as one. I know I have to accept each relationship I have with a boy for how long it last, how they change as they get older, that each one is different and special, and the pain and hurt when they move on. But the memories of each one I will always hold dearly in my heart and I will always have my arms open for the next one that comes along. I know that a boy that needs a mans love, when with me will be kept safe and be given all of the love and guidance that he needs for as long as he needs it and wont be taken advantage of. So if I can make a difference in one boys life at a time and do whats right by him, it helps to keep me from depression. I know thats one more boy on this earth that did not fall into the wrong hands and get used.

Enjoy what ever you have and do not focus on what you don't have. He will move on one day maybe for ever. This you have to accept it is part of being a boylover. But be ready for the next one who will need you, it is what you do for them that really counts not what they do for you. I am not saying that what they do for you is not important though.

The syf I have right now has its ups and downs and can be very frustrating
at times. I know that things can change over night, it would not be the first time, but I take each day that I have with him and build the memories that will be important to have in the future.

I hope you have some very good times this summer and build a lot of good memories with him. make it the most special summer of both of your lives!!

God Bless

Blaze