Godspell, I really like your suggested revision and I'm thinking of going with it, but suddenly I'm not sure its accurate anymore.

The way I feel at the moment is: I don't want to have sex with my wife.
So whilst "I can make this relationship more than platonic"
I don't want to.

I feel terribly guilty about this.
I promised my wife sex when I married her.
I feel like shit at the idea of going back on that promise but I also feel like shit at the thought of having to keep it.

I wonder if I'm just throwing a tantrum or something.
Why does the idea of sex with her make me feel so sick? I just can't get my head around it.

This is so bloody hard.
God help us!
Cat.