Hi qwerty. Thanks for the reply. Yes I do have a girl friend, and I'm crazy about her. Unfortunitly she does not know of my attraction to boys. Nobody does. today was the first time I let my secret out.

I do get what your saying, however my definition of a pedophile is any anyone who has sex with a child, so I do not consider myself one. I think that society will automaticly assume that if im caught checking out a boy, I am wanting to get in his pants.

Just to make clear up what my seem like confusing rambling from my first post, this is my main fear. The way I am now, im a "nobody" and the city I live in is large enough that if im "caught" I may not see them for a while, and when I do see them, all will probably be forgotten. but when I finish my schooling, I will be constintly in the public eye. people will know me, since im going into broadcasting, and if caught then, rumors could get started that could ruin my career.

Maybe im just paranoid.