1 O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.
5 You hem me inbehind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, [a] you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.
I was walking just the other day at a major event amongst 1000s of people. And as I walked amongst that sea of people I remembered that this was just a small portion of the population of my city and, by world standards, I live in a small city.
I consider the depths of God's understanding of me. I trust that the words of this psalm apply not just to David who wrote it but to me as well... and by extension to every person of those 1000s at that event and the millions in my city and the billions in the world.
Such knowledge is indeed TOO WONDERFUL FOR ME!
It boggles my mind how few of those thousands and millions know Jesus. I really struggle to understand that. Sigh. But above all I felt very greatful that I was one of those who do.
Something strange happened to me while I was there. I have this yf that I see semi-regularly and I just knew weeks before I went to this event that I'd see him there. We had no plans to meet and I didn't know what day he was going. In fact I changed the day I was going because of bad wether and went two days later. I don't know how I knew or even WHY I knew... but sure enough... I walked through the gates and was in the grounds for 5 minutes and there he was. I said hey, shook his hand, tosselled his hair and wished him a great day at the event. His family wandered off one way and my family wandered another. Apart from making me very happy (and it did make me so very happy) I can't see any significance in this meeting or any reason why I should have forseen it.... but there it is. I don't see it as purely conincidence in the light of this psalm's "you know when I sit down and when I rise" but I really don't understand.
God puts us in certain places at certian times with certian people for His own reasons... right now I just feel so VERY grateful to know that and I pray that I might be a useful servant in doing my part in His plans.
Father, the reality that You know so much when I understand SO little really is qutie humbling. I cannot fathom the millions of unsaved people there are in the world. Half the time I can't fathom what's going on in my own life and what things mean and why they happen the way they do. But Father, You know. You know and You care and You love more than I can possibly imagine. Help me to trust in Your sovreignty. Help me trust that You have every life in Your care. Help me to listen to the leading voice of Your Holy Spirit, that I may be a useful servant in Your amazing purposes. And thank You that I am one of Your very own. I love You.