Devotional no.22 Why Me, Lord?
But Moses pleaded with the Lord, O Lord, Im just not a good speaker. I never have been, and Im not now, even after you have spoken to me. Im clumsy with words.
Who makes mouths? The Lord asked him. Who makes people so they can speak or not to speak, hear or not hear, see or not see? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go and do as I have told you. I will help you speak well, and I will tell you what to say.
For we are Gods masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so that we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.
You lived in this world without God and without hope. But now you belong to Christ Jesus. Though you once were far away from God, now you have been brought near to him because of the blood of Christ.
Ephesians 2:10 and 12b&13
A recent thread here in the forum began when one of our younger members became upset with the problems of being a BL or being gay, and began to ask the question, Why me?. It was a plea born out of emotional pain and the frustration of trying to live a Christian life with the burden of being same sex attracted and a teenager. Something every one of us can relate to, as is evident by the sheer number of replies he received to his post. It is a very valid question and I believe God has a very valid answer to it.
None of us asked to be what we are, did we? It is still a matter of much debate as to how we became Boylovers, but one thing I am sure is true of all of us; none of us ASKED to be this way. Who would? It is a difficult way to have to live for the most part, and I wouldnt wish it on my worst enemy. I would even put it towards the top of the list of most difficult things in life to have to live with; perhaps right next to being blind or deaf or mentally handicapped. With all the negative social stigma attached to being a BL or even just being gay, with all the misunderstanding and ignorant prejudice as well, it becomes a major mountain to have to overcome. Would I be wrong to assume that we have all had our turn at demanding from God Why me, Lord? Why does this have to happen to me? Why do I have to live like this and have to endure all the stuff I am suffering right now, with no end in sight?
First of all we must realize that God loves us with all of His heart, mind and soul. Just as it says in Ephesians 2, we are his masterpiece. He paid a truly heavy and expensive price for us to become his masterpiece. Although this is fundamental theology, it is also deeply meaningful and the very crux of our faith as Christians. Just the fact that we now belong to Christ Jesus is enough to change our entire outlook on life, if we meditate on it enough. This isnt just good news, it is GINORMOUS news! And God has a plan for us a good plan to do good things. So even though we are often tempted to question it all, like Moses, and try to come up with reasons why it just cannot work, we must trust in God and know that He is God and is more than capable of taking our seemingly useless lives and selves and turning them into the masterpiece that he says is already there.
Dear Lord, please grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Thank you for loving me just the way I am and for making me a masterpiece with a good purpose. You ARE my Lord and I trust you after all.
In Jesus name, Amen.