To the Chief Musician. On a stringed instrument. A Psalm of David.
1 Hear my cry, O God;
Attend to my prayer.
2 From the end of the earth I will cry to You,
When my heart is overwhelmed;
Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
3 For You have been a shelter for me,
A strong tower from the enemy.
4 I will abide in Your tabernacle forever;
I will trust in the shelter of Your wings. Selah
5 For You, O God, have heard my vows;
You have given me the heritage of those who fear Your name.
6 You will prolong the kings life,
His years as many generations.
7 He shall abide before God forever.
Oh, prepare mercy and truth, which may preserve him!
8 So I will sing praise to Your name forever,
That I may daily perfo rm my vows.
Life as a BL means that often our most significant relationships are with other peoples kids.
This always means that the relationships are subject to sudden changes over which we have no control.
Whatever the club, event, or point of our contact with the boy can change... he may just stop coming. His family could move away. We can have a falling out with the parents. We can become the subject of suspicion. Our wife (if we have one) may get jealous. Any number of things. Even our adult relationships are often haunted by secrets and BL issues that could potentially terminate the relationships.
This last couple of weeks Ive faced some significant and overwhelming changes with some close relationships (one with a friend, one with my wife and one with a yf) because of BL issues. Its not easy not at all.
How many of us have known the loss of a loved one? More than one even.
In my grief I turn to this psalm.
When my heart is overwhelmed
Yeah. Im feeling pretty overwhelmed right now.
How awesome that my God is a refuge and a strong tower a safe and secure place to turn in such times.
How awesome that as Christians we look forward to a day when Jesus comes and there wont be BL issues to complicate relationships.
Father, help me to trust in your sovereign care for me when relationship problems seem overwhelming to me. Help me trust that you set my boundaries and bless my loves. Give me grace and wisdom to have long term enduring friendships and comfort me when Im overwhelmed with loss and the prospect of losing someone I love. And thank you Father that you are a rock and a strong tower we can turn to in times when we really are overwhelmed.