tog I have talked to you many times and I don't always know what to say but I really want to talk to you more. Please don't kill yourself for the sake of you and everyone who loves you. Life is better than death, life is a struggle that we all must fight in our own way. Boylovers do not deserve to die, we deserve to live, thrive, and be happy just as much as everyone else. It is sometimes hard to do that as a BL but it is our lot, not because we deserve it but because people hate us. I don't know exactly why but I know that it won't always be this way. At one time it seemed like women, Africans, gays, etc would never live without persucation and now see the way things are changing. No it's not perfect for any of these groups but it is much better and things are getting better all the time.
tog, Lifeline is here for you, if you come back cblf is here for you and we will stand with you in the best way we can. God has answered your prayers, but it is not the answer you seek. He has given you places you can find brothers and sisters like you who will be there with you in the struggle so you will not be alone. God does not want us to change our sexuality, he has asked us to love and I do that the bast way I can.