Devotionals #100287


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In the past

Posted by TBL on 2002-11-14 07:20:34, Thursday
In reply to Re: Help posted by vaspian on 2002-11-14 05:28:12, Thursday

I helplessly watched my mother lie in a coma for a year. That was so awful. After finding out she had cancer but before she slipped into the coma, I prayed to God and asked was she going to die. In a dream that night God came to me and said she would die on the day she did, over a year later. I feel he was preparing me for what lay ahead and give me the strength to later make the decision to demand the Doctors to let her go onto his holy kingdom. In another dream two months before she passed (and during pivotal decisions), I saw exactly how her death would occur and how I found out. God was telling me that not to fret, she would soon be with him. He also gave me the strength to make the awful decisions that had to be made.

And as a young man I was kidnapped, spent a night of terror and suffered much. I accepted that they were going to kill me. I silently prayed that God would make my death not painful for my family and swift for me. But God I feel had that police officer find me as they were about to shoot and gave me the courage to scream out for help. I never felt closer to God than on that morning afterwards as I went to church and gave thanks through my tears. I still get choked up thinking about it.

Besides my father's illness, much has gone on in the past year. My life is in much turmoil.

I wish you the best and ask you not consider. I have been there to. Six months ago I was hospitalized for wanting to do the same thing. The memories of that kidnapping along with other baggage got to be more than I could handle. After I got out, I learned how to handle it better. No longer do I wake up screaming from another night recollecting what happened. No longer am I tormented by those awful flashbacks.

I wish you and your loved ones the best during this awful time.


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