All of us--all of us who have posted on these pages--don't hurt. Don't fret. Don't lose your faith, men! The Lord holds us in the still of his hand; like a blush He keeps us fresh in the rush of His Mercy. DO NOT DESPAIR! If you love boys then all right, you love boys! I love boys! I find in them the perfection of God's sublime promise. But it is a promise that I cannot embrace right now. One day/some day. You wish to see Jesus in the innocence of a boy's fresh face? See Him, then, but please do not touch. Do not partake. Do not enjoy. That will be Heaven, when you can partake. And touch. That will be Forever. This is here, though, and this is now, then, and this is not forever, see. So... DO NOT TOUCH! DO NOT DESPAIR! Don't let your hurt hurt. God loves you because you are the forgotten, the meek, the self-controlled, the special ones. God loves you, like He loves His forgotten--only you are remembered. YOU ARE REMEMBERED! AND YOU ARE LOVED! AND GOD KNOWS YOU LOVE WHO YOU LOVE BECAUSE HE LOVES YOU! Selah.