Ever gone to bed thinking how rotten you are? The thoughts of those thoughts coursing through you like venom? Rotten, rotten, God forgotten? Yeah, I have too.

Then one night I prayed this prayer and the power of it overwhelmed me:

LORD GOD FATHER GOD:

I thank YOU that YOU have made me special,
set apart,
cast out from the crowd,
one in a thousand.

I thank YOU that YOU
have deemed it meet that I
should yearn for boys
whose innocence echo YOUR perfection.

And I thank YOU that YOU
have instilled in me
the power of will--YOUR will--
to overcome my lusts and to give
those passing thoughts to YOU so
my eternal dreams of love are pure.

Thank YOU, FATHER GOD, that I
can look on the perfect face of a boy's
cherished grin and see the face of YOU that,
though I yearn to touch it now,
I cannot touch till Heaven.

Thank YOU for teaching me patience,
controlled desire,
the brevity of fleshly worship
and the eternity of Heavenly Worship.

I love YOU, FATHER, and I
ask special blessings on those like me
whose desires are for YOU
more even than for the pure joy of a blessed boy.

THANK YOU FATHER FOR MAKING ME A LOVER OF TEMPORAL BOYS--
SO THAT I CAN BE A BETTER LOVER OF THE FOREVER YOU!

Amen
and Amen.

IN Christ, I'm OK