were it not for my faith I would be dead or locked up some how.

I get on by somehow knowing that The Lord has my back regardless. I think that is the The Holy Spirit though. Its impossible to explain unless revealed or experienced.

Yes I am out to some people. Family ect.. No it doesn't help. I feel as though I have to be on guard around them to a degree. When out in public with them I feel as though I have to go to extra lengths so as to relate to them that all is well with me in that department.

Thank you for answering my post. I actually meant to post it as a new message. However, I'm not at all convinced that it was a mistake after all.

Deep calleth unto Deep.
Love in Christ.