One of the depressing aspects of the story of the cannonisation of John Henry Newman was the way in which his close friendship with another man was assumed by the modern media to have been sexually driven. By contrast the bible is full of very strong same sex relationships that are presented as non-sexual: Naomi and Ruth, David and Jonathan, Elijah and Elisha, Jesus and John and Paul and Timothy.

In my own life, I have a number of continuing friendships with other men which are VERY close, and totally non-sexual. I'm therefore sad that you feel the need to demand a sexual element to these relationships rather than accept them for what they CAN be - friendships that make living worthwhile.* Somewhere along the way - probably in the 60s as sex became something far less special - we've lost sight of the value of friendship. This has been especially damaging for those of us who are committed to a celibate lifestyle, because it makes it harder to find the friends that we need.

I hope you can reestablish your friendships with those two people who have come across your path and find something of value in those relationships despite their not having a sexual component.

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* There used to a tag 'Love is what makes the world go round'. A wise man proposed the alternative: 'Love is what makes the ride worthwhile'.