Christian BoyLove Forum #66129
It is difficult to care about somebody, regardless of who may be that somebody. I do appreciate that you are willing to express concern about how I am doing, it feels nice in contrast to what has been happening as of late. I think I was missing the feeling that somebody cared, and you have proven that somebody, a truly complete stranger, does care.
I always wanted to be the guy that makes people happy, especially people I don't know. The thought of being the kind stranger who says something to brighten a person's day or gives a homeless man enough to fix his life, it was always what I wanted to do. I didn't know this family or this boy, but I met them, and became a part of their lives. I wanted to demonstrate that I had become what I wanted. I wanted to make a difference in their lives.
As time passes, hopefully the benefits of my actions will be more apparent. She isn't happy with me, but I am not completely exiled. Assuming I attain my previous status, I will continue to try and help this family, and be somebody special to the boy. If this is the end, I doubt I will find myself in the position to repeat this experience. Mostly by my choosing, but I have decided on a career path that is low interaction, and those I do interact with are adults and on a limited personal basis. If I am meant to be in this boy's life or another's, God will help it be.