Christian BoyLove Forum #65747
I know I haven't been active here for a long time but I do stop in from time to time to see what is going on. I guess this place really has slowed down quite a bit. I hope it doesn't have to shut down because regardless of the number of posts, we have no idea how many people we are helping who just come in here to read. However, if this is my last time to post, then I am glad I caught it still open.
Some time ago I and a friend provided the music for a dance for younger kids. It went over really well and I was having a blast watching all the kids (and their parents) dance and have a great time. After a while my friend turned to me and asked me if I love kids so much, why don't I have any of my own. I thought about it for a little while and told him that I just don't have the heart to bring a child into this world. And that is the truth. I don't fault anyone else for having children, but as for me, I don't want to do it (even if I could, of course). It seems like every day the world is getting worse, more corrupt, more violent, more frightening. When I was listening to the news on the radio after that horrific bombing in Boston, one of the commentators asked, "How can we tell our kids that they live in a safe world, when it is obvious that we do not?". Indeed, how can we? I do love children but this world has become a different place since I was a kid. If I were a kid today, I know I would be frightened to be growing up in this world...frightened to the core.
Anyway, if that is my last post, then so be it. I am disgusted with this world and I pray that God be with us all and give us the strength to carry on.