Christian BoyLove Forum #65639
Most of the time, I feel great! I live a full and fulfilling life. I have friends I hang out with, I have a church I love and am very active in, I have a career I enjoy, I have a variety of hobbies I indulge in whenever I can find the time, and yes I even have boys in my life.
Here's the thing, life is about a lot more than just sex. Except for porn stars, everyone else spends only a tiny fraction of their life engaged in sexual acts. The rest of their time is occupied by other pursuits.
I know what you might be thinking, that it's not just the sex you miss, but the love. But here's the thing about that, gay and straight couples don't spend the majority of their time together having sex either. They go to the movies, they go out for ice cream, they have dinner together, they watch tv, they do all kinds of things that you can also do with the boy you love. The boy may never love you back in a romantic way, but make no mistake about it, if you spend quality time with a boy that needs it, he will love you in his own boyish way. Hearing the words "I love you" will make your heart flutter even if deep down you realize that his love is different from yours. But that's ok, you're still two people who love each other and that's a beautiful and fulfilling thing!
Don't get me wrong, I experience negative emotions too. I get angry and sad and frustrated and anxious about various situations just like everyone else does. I do struggle with various issues ranging from lust to pride. I do sometimes have a week where nothing seems to be going my way. I don't mean to pretend that my life is all rosy and perfect. But for the most part I'm a happy person in a fairly good mood and those moments of unhappiness are the exception rather than the rule.
There is hope.