Christian BoyLove Forum #65526
Your second paragraph says 'Boylove doesn't control me anymore'. The last says 'He can take boylove away', suggesting that you are no longer attracted to boys at all. The first should be our attitude to all the temptations we are suffering. The second is a far more radical claim, and is lots more problematic.
PS - as someone who finds the claim 'Jesus is coming soon' highly irritating, because it's been rattling around the church for 2000 years, and more importantly, has been distracting Christians into obtuse arguments about the rapture, the millennium and the role of Israel for 150 years, you might want to reduce the amount you talk about that when you first arrive; it tends to reduce your credibility. And that's despite my being sympathetic to your theology on the matter!