Marc,

I can only encourage you to accept yourself, your situation and to adjust your expectations accordingly.

You are a boylover. It's perfectly natural that you will fall in love with boys.

It's also not allowed to have an intimate sexual relationship with one.

If you can simply accept those things... accept your feelings and the fact that they can't go anywhere in the real world... then perhaps you can adjust your expectations and stop lamenting what you can't have.

You come to this place where it's ok to want more than you're ever going to get... where it's ok to have longings that won't be fullfilled... where it's ok to settle for just being friends.

The alternative is to get really frustrated and to try and change stuff you can't or to run away from what could be a really wonderful friendship.

I encourage you to enjoy your dreams. If you can accept that you can't actually have them in the real world, the dreams can be great for their own sake.

Blessings
Cat.