I feel in a bad way again. I feel that I need something more interactive than this. I find it hard to say what I feel that I need to say.

I feel that my life is tragic. Due to mental health problems, I fear that I will never work again. I didn't find employment easy before. Ex-teachers are held in very low esteem in the UK. The chances of me getting a job elsewhere is low.

I have also had my self-esteem systematically destroyed. Even if I spent the rest of my life in self-esteem activities I don't think it would repair the damage.