Christian BoyLove Forum #64871
A long time ago I posted here, and now I am back.
What has brought me back is that I recently turned 30 and need some changes in my life. I hope that over the next 365 days I will be able to post regularly about my past experiences. I say 365 days because as I turned 30 I want to give up on pornography for at least one year. I hope that with your support this will be possible. I am sure this request is not new to you, and in fact, it won't be the first time that I have put a stop to this. I won't define pornography for you, but to at least be on topic, in my life it has been everything. Enough said. To be honest, if it wasn't illegal, I don't know if I would stop. What does get me, however, are videos of those being forced into pornography, rather than say an individual revealing themselves on a webcam. Anyway, I am trying to get rid of all of it, for at least one year.
Just a little bit about myself. I have knowingly been a BL since the age of 16. I had experiences with friends of the same age since i was 8-9 years old, and to be honest, as I grew up I thought that my attractions to boys would grow with me, that I would one day be gay. Instead, as I reached the age of 16 and older, my age of preference remained the same. So here I am, 30, a BL, and definitely in the closet! I have had several BFs over the years, but in my current state I have none. I always find that there is just a piece of my heart missing when I am without a YF. This is another topic for another day.
That is just a brief summary. It is my hope that over the next 365 days I can share more and more about my life, if nothing else, to help me find myself. I have come to accept that I am a BL and cannot change. God has made us like this for a reason, a reason that I don't understand, but accept. So I am simply trying to find peace in this world, and I am starting by ridding myself of porn.
Thanks for Listening.