As I said in Q1. I feel like I fully accept that being a BL is part of God's plan for my life. The challenge for me is how to respond to that acceptance.

Like if I'm a BL then what does that mean for my relationship with God, with boys and with my wife?

I see two broad categories of reactions to someone accepting them self as a BL.

1. God planned for me to be like this so He must be ok with me having a sexual relationship with a boy.

2. God planned for me to be like this but He's got plans for me that involve me resisting pursing sexual relationships with boys.

I certainly fall into the second reaction.
There are subsections of this reaction too. One may believe it's never God's will for us to sex boys or that it's just not in this current social climate.

For me it's the former... never ok.
So where does that leave me with God? Why would He plan for me to be a BL if sexing is not allowed? And this is the area where I have wrestled so much.

Should I seek to become straight?
Should I have not gotten married?
Is it ok for me to be married when I'm not attracted sexually to my wife?
Can I have appropriate relationships with boys?
Have I done something wrong in my life that got me here?
Why won't God change me?
If I'm to be a non-sexing BL then what exactly does God want me to do with all this boy energy I have?
Is it ok that I feel like a boy inside?
How much of God's plan for me can I openly share with others in my community?
How can I reconcile that I accept my sexuality but my wife doesn't?

These are all questions I have struggled with at one time or another.

Another idea that this area could raise is... God hates me and has rejected me and cursed me with this sexuality. Fortunately, I personally have never been there.

Blessings
Cat.