I have felt this way for a long time now because I believe that it is just as possible for a BL to be wonderfully used by God as anyone else. For example, my relationship with my YF really helped him a lot, and it really helped me a lot. He needed a man in his life at that time and I was the one who could best fill that role...at that time. I also needed him in my life at that time. We loved one another very much and because I was a Christian, he became interested in my faith in God and eventually accepted Jesus into his heart. Now if that wasn't part of God's will for my life, then I would like to know what is.