Christian BoyLove Forum #64457
When I hit puberty, I was sexually attracted to both boys AND girls my own age. At the time, I thought I was straight with some gay "tendencies." I "messed around" a little with a couple boy friends of mine, but I figured that was only because the girls weren't willing. At the time, I assumed I would grow up straight and end up married with a family. As I got older, my attractions to the female gender grew with me, but my attraction to males stayed frozen at around 10-14 year olds. Still, I never admitted to myself I was a pedophile till much later. It was just something I couldn't accept. The funny thing is that after I finally did admit it to myself, it became substancially easier to deal with.