"I believe first in formost that Jesus has a plan for me."

You're an intelligent man and you're not going to keep writing "first and foremost" as the charmingly nonsensical "first in formost" for the rest of your life. You're at a stage of 'youth' where revelations are popping out and it's an exhilarating moment. But this doesn't all take place in one day and, at the same time as bits of cultural trivia like 'first and foremost' are revealing themselves to you over the next few years, other flashes of knowledge and insight will also be coming along.

At some point you may become aware of two things -- first, the fact that your eros for other guys isn't actually a separate phenomenon called 'lust' or 'desire' that is brought to its full God-given fruition in some sort of mild mental porn that gives an orgasms to make it go away for awhile, but instead is entwined with love and is a commission to increase the love and happiness of another child of God whose God-given sexuality is truly compatible with yours. And secondly, that the idea that your eros is a special sin unconnected to deficit of love (most sins show a deficit of love; this one can't be claimed to and if it existed in the book of sins would be some sort of a formality), while the identical impulses and feelings in your heterosexual friends are sanctioned by God, is an anomaly that can't be reconciled with insight into the will of a truly loving God.

It may be that you have a God-given partner out there in the world as I have, and if you meet him, don't be to quick to call his attempts to reach out to you in love as temptations to sinful lust. You'll hurt him.

In the meantime, enjoy the age of transcendence.